Friday, July 25, 2014

Bicara Hati LittleMissMeen

Assalamualaikum semua :) 

Hari ni LittleMissMeen rasa macam nak blog in BM. Memang rasa pelik sikit hehe. Kali terakhir saya blog in BM pun rasanya 2 tahun yang lepas. Kalau nak tau, saya memang fasih Bahasa Melayu sekarang. 10 tahun dulu mungkin tidak, baru sahaja belajar BM di sekolah. Hari tu ada orang komen, kata dia ingatkan saya orang Cina? Hehe Takde, walaupun saya half Malay tapi saya rasa macam serasi dengan budaya dan cara hidup orang Melayu Islam. 

Hari ni saya happy sangat, hari Jumaat selalu menjadi hari kegemaran saya. Hari Jumaat selalu rasa tenang dan di luar pun selalu kelihatan indah dan cuaca pun baik, Alhamdulillah tak terlalu panas dan kalau hujan lebat pun akan sejuk rasanya. Malam tadi hati terasa sayu sangat selepas selesai solat tarawih. My <3 rajin bawa saya ke solat tarawih dan saya rasa bersyukur sangat kepada Allah kerana menemukan kita, insyaAllah niat baik kita sentiasa diredai dan diberkati. Bukan saya tak gembira nak sambut Hari Raya, cuma saya rasa akan merindukan Ramadan. Tambahan pula, Ramadan tahun depan insyaAllah saya akan berada di UK dan tak pasti lagi bila saya pulang ke Malaysia. Tapi untuk saya, tempat itu bukan perkara yang paling penting. Kalau dengan orang-orang yang kita sayangi, di mana-mana pun saya tetap gembira. InsyaAllah pengalaman dan cabaran semasa di negeri orang membawa banyak hikmah dan sememangnya banyak yang saya pelajari. 

*Kenapa bila blog dalam BM rasa lambat sangat saya tulis, omg*

Isu MH17 memang sedih sekali. Ramadan tahun ni banyak memori manis dan pahit. World Cup, Gaza diserang Israel, kes MH17. Yang manisnya, Alhamdulillah dapat berpuasa dan beraya dengan orang-orang yang sangat saya sayangi. That's the best part. Bayangkan selepas berbulan-bulan saya berdikari dan belajar untuk hidup sendiri di kampus yang beribu-ribu batu daripada keluarga, akhirnya Allah memberi peluang untuk kami bersama-sama menyambut bulan yang paling mulia dan perayaan paling utama bagi umat Islam. Hadiah yang tidak ternilai untuk saya selepas tamat tahun pertama di sana dengan jayanya. 

Balik kepada kapal terbang MAS MH17 yang terhempas akibat ditembak semasa melalui sempadan Ukraine, saya berpendapat bahawa ada beberapa perkara yang boleh dipelajari dan ada mesej yang mungkin Tuhan ingin sampaikan. 

1. Permusuhan itu memang ditegah, kalau Ukraine dan Rusia boleh mencari jalan untuk mencapai perdamaian secara berhemah tanpa melibatkan senjata or pertumpahan darah, mungkin perkara itu tidak akan terjadi. Setiap masalah atau pertikaian itu insyaAllah ada jalannya kalau kedua-dua pihak mampu bertoleransi dan berbincang dengan baik.
2. Pihak yang membuat tembakan itu mungkin 'paranoid' bahawa setiap kapal terbang yang melalui sempadan itu adalah pihak musuh. Ini adalah buruk sangka dan hasil tindakan terburu-buru tanpa usul periksa, 300 nyawa insan yang tiada kaitan langsung dengan permasalahan politik mereka menjadi mangsa keadaan.
3. Tuhan ingin mengingatkan kita bahawa manusia itu sangat lemah dan terdedah kepada banyak ancaman bahaya. Manusia boleh disakiti oleh ciptaan mereka sendiri (senjata dan kapal terbang) kalau akal ciptaan itu tidak digunakan dengan cara yang betul. 
4. Nyawa boleh diambil pada bila-bila masa, jadi hargailah orang-orang yang kita sayangi. Jauhi perselisihan faham dan pertengkaran. Jadilah seorang yang pemaaf agar kita tidak berasa kesal kemudian hari jika terjadi apa-apa. Dan bersyukurlah dengan segala kenikmatan Tuhan tanpa merungut dan yakin bahawa Tuhan telah memberikan yang terbaik untuk kita.
5. Akhir sekali, tragedi yang mengerikan ini menjagi ingatan kepada semua yang ia boleh terjadi kepada sesiapa sahaja tanpa kira usia, bangsa, negara, jantina dan status. Kematian itu lumrah kehidupan dan semua akan kembali kepada Tuhan, tiada siapa yang boleh mengelak. Kita hanyalah mampu membuat persiapan yang terbaik.


Kuatkan semangat dan isilah hari-hari terakhir Ramadan ini dengan doa dan amal soleh. Berdoalah insyaAllah kita panjang umur dan dapat menjalani ibadah puasa pada tahun depan.

ok x saya blog in BM, sori kalau ada yang susah faham apa yang ditulis :)



Early Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :)

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Cruelty and Evil in this World

Dear Readers,

I feel sad whenever I start talking about the victims in Gaza, Palestine. Its cruelty beyond imagination, plus its Ramadhan when were are all busy fasting and searching for pretty clothes for Raya. These things do not even cross their mind, instead safety of their family, food and protection against the evil Zionist Israel is what they yearn for..

I watched a video earlier and after watching that, I decided not to watch any more for the day. It was too heartbreaking. Killing people using rockets and what was defined as 'barbaric' aggression is actually happening in this world right now, in the 21st century while people are busy with fashion, football and fun. The video I watched involved a woman being dragged by a few Israel men, tortured and then people who tried to help her was beaten even badly. Another one was a baby who was bleeding badly lying down on a hospital bed with the dad and a few men around the baby. One man, I assume the dad was crying harder than the other and they wee trying to calm him down. And then they wrapped the baby with white cloth after leading the dad outside the room... They are attacking so very ferociously, I just felt like being silent after watching the video. No words could explain how I felt. A helpless feeling. 

I wish I could tell the dad that he could keep all his children in my room while the attack happened and all the other children and women as well. That doesn't make sense does it? I wish I could, I know its not that easy. Then they could sahur and break fast with me and not witness that horrid cruelty by heartless people or should I call animals..But when I think of it, they died as a syahid- which is an honour for Muslims who died defending their faith or family. 

This is from Wikipedia:
A shahid is considered one whose place in Paradise is promised according to these verses in the Qur'an:
وَلاَ تَحْسَبَنَّ الَّذِينَ قُتِلُواْ فِي سَبِيلِ اللّهِ أَمْوَاتًا بَلْ أَحْيَاء عِندَ رَبِّهِمْ يُرْزَقُونَ
Think not of those who are slain in Allah's way as dead. Nay, they live, finding their sustenance in the presence of their Lord; They rejoice in the bounty provided by Allah: And with regard to those left behind, who have not yet joined them (in their bliss), the Shuhada's [martyrs'] glory is in the fact that on them is no fear, nor have they (cause to) grieve.
—Qur'an, Sura 3 (Al-i-Imran), Ayat 169 – 170[2]
Allah hath purchased of the believers their persons and their goods; for theirs (in return) is the garden (of Paradise): they fight in His cause, and slay and are slain: a promise binding on Him in truth, through the Law, the Gospel, and the Qur'an: and who is more faithful to his covenant than Allah? then rejoice in the bargain which ye have concluded: that is the achievement supreme.
—Qur'an, Sura 9 (At-Tawba), Ayah 111[3]
The Quranic passage that follows is often misinterpreted to mean that martyrs are promised Paradise, but it is also promised to those who die. In other words, it is not the way that a Muslim dies that determines if they go to Paradise or not, rather, it is their faith and deeds.
Those who leave their homes in the cause of Allah, and are then slain or die,- On them will Allah bestow verily a goodly Provision: Truly Allah is He Who bestows the best provision.
—Qur'an, Surah 22 (Al-Hajj), Ayah 58[4]

They must be very happy because Heaven is waiting for them and they have died the best and most honourable way. Remember that, any pain in this world will be rewarded with happiness and joy in the hereafter and I pray for the best for them, insyaAllah. Let's read Al-Fatihah for them.

Lately, I have had time to look at my news feed on fb more often than usual. Most of the time, I just post something and log out but recently I have discovered that people share beneficial news and that's kept me staying for awhile. And as I read, I realised that so many people like and leave a comment on popular news like thousands of them. Some of them were very critical. For instance, I strongly disagree with one statement that supported Israel and said there must be 2 sides of the story. That person who is just a teenager has no idea what he/she is talking about. In the Quran, it mentioned about this, about the Israels, their cruelty and I believe that God is fair and just. If evil people get away in this world, let them see what awaits them in the hereafter. Astaghfirullah. 

Another video was about a kitten being burned to death. It was devastating. Crazy. Unbelievable. Luckily I don't curse. I don't pray for anything bad to happen to those 2 guys because I know that the al-Quran has evidence of what will happen to people who are cruel and evil to animals. They are in big trouble unless they find a way to repent to God. I pray that the little kitty is happy now in Heaven :) 

There are so many evil things happening and I only mentioned less than 1% of it. In the book I read by Yasmin Mogahed, she said that this world in imperfect no matter how hard we try to make it perfect. People want to look young but they age and die, people can't live without food and water and oxygen, people bleed and get hurt, no human is perfect in this world and we all have this great desire of wanting everything to be perfect because our true home is Heaven, where everything is absolutely perfect. That is where Adam and Eve was created and all of us descend from them so our instincts want to return home and make everything feel at home- beautiful spouse, pretty home and wonderful children, good job, good pay. Only after Adam was punished and brought down to this world, of all us (his descendents) would be accessed on our faith and where we go in the hereafter will depend on our actions in this world. Perfection is Heaven and the reason why we are here in this world is to determine if we are going to return to Heaven or go to Hell. That's how I would sum up what I read in her book.

If I were to continue writing about cruelty, there is too much to say and as lucky people who are blessed with a comfortable life, let's pray for those who are less fortunate and strive the be the best Muslims. Even in Ramadan, without Satans these people are acting so cruel. We obviously see that it is their own intention driven by their cruel desires. 

Let's pray to God to protect us from these people and keep all the faithful people safe with Allah.

Have a blessful last 10 nights of Ramadan and insyaAllah we will be awake praying on that special night, Lailatul Qadr. Amin :)

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Summer Break Updates in Ramadan

As a blogger who has blogged for 3 and a half years, I wouldn't deny that at times when I open a blank page, I run out of ideas to write. When I think and think after awhile and no brilliant idea comes in, I decide to delay blogging to another time. On top of that, university life has made me ultimately busy and now I am so thankful to be home and have time to relax, especially since I get to experience Ramadan and Syawal here back home. So far, I've been to the mosque 3 times on this holy month and it has been a beautiful experience. I always feel happy when I go and a sort of peaceful feeling. 

I admit this Ramadan there has been many changes in me and in the way I perceive things and view life. Since I have had some free time lately, I've read some very inspiring Islamic books and some of them title : Wanita-Wanita Syurga even made me tear a few times. After going through an academic year in the UK, I return feeling stronger and different. Its like that feeling when you come out of a situation that you never thought you would manage well and you did despite many challenges. 

I have made a recent change to my life. I will write it on my blog soon, its something I have always wanted to do. I'm guessing I might end up writing a very long post when I do.

While I was in the UK, my family moved to a new home. Its beautiful, I like it. Its just that I felt like a visitor the first time I entered because I had no idea where everything was. Plus the security here is super strict and its weird when I'm acting like a visitor when I actually live here >< Its much better now.

Ok I'm being random hihi

My brother is just adorable. Just an hour plus ago, I was putting him to sleep. He always requests for bedtime stories and sleeps in my room at times. 

Went shopping with my mum yesterday, it was so fun. We didn't buy too much because we are still looking around. Then in the evening, my brothers' friends came over to play for a bit.

Today I watched Hansel and Gretel the movie with my cousin at my grandma's house. It was so gory and gruesome, some scenes were plain bloody. The plot was nice though.



The other day, my tutor in London skyped with me at 1245am (Malaysian time) to inform and congratulate me on my Year 1 results. Alhamdulillah, I so thankful.. :')

Motivation quotes of the week:

Strive for the best, but bear in mind that even if you don't get it all, you'll still get a certain part of it at least.

If you do things to please human beings, God will let you be in the hands of them. And if you do things to please God, you can leave it to Him Al-Mighty.

Be confident in what you decide to do if you know it makes God proud, let people accept you for who you are and not who you try to be.

In the Quran, everything written has a good reason. Allah knows what's best for His creation and that is why He told us how to live our life in the holy book. 

5 times prayers a day is meant to keep our hearts attached to Allah and always remember Him at any time of the day. This way we will not be able to be too attached to anything else than Him because at a certain period of the day, we will stop whatever we are doing and have quiet time worshipping and praying/ relying to Him.

Amin. Wishing everyone a blessful Ramadan. These are a few things I learned when reading a book by Yasmin Mogahed below
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There is a lot for me to learn and everyday, I try to increase my knowledge and faith as much as I can to improve myself. 

Assalamualaikum 

Monday, July 7, 2014

Felixia Yeap's Official Blog: 3 Julai : Hari Kelahiran Semula Ku - Felixia Yeap

Dear all, 

In this holy month of Ramadhan, I was browsing through inspiring stories and came across this blog. May it inspire you. Amin

Felixia Yeap's Official Blog: 3 Julai : Hari Kelahiran Semula Ku - Felixia Yeap: Assalammualaikum. Sejak beberapa bulan ini, dari saat saya bertekad sebulat hati mengenakan hijab walaupun sebagai seorang yang belum ...

Saturday, June 28, 2014

How to Maintain a Good Relationship with People

Dear all,

Today's motivation topic is focused on developing and maintaining a good relationship with the important people in your life instead of my usual self-development topic.

In this world, yes it is important to focus on your self-motivation, ambition, etc but at the same time, I believe that it is crucial to have a good relationship with people because different people play a different role in your life. Having a good personality, the ability to get along with people and to be beneficial to others is definitely an achievement and something to be proud of.

Starting a close relationship with people is not that easy and maintaining it is actually said to be even challenging. But if you ask me, once I become close with someone and really enjoy their presence, I would personally want to maintain a good relationship with them and definitely not lose them. To me, catching up, helping each other, making the effort to see and attend gatherings together and sharing about each others' lives is interesting and should not be considered a burden. Its something I 'want' to do and not 'have' to do.

People in this context can be referred to as close and distant family, love of your life, friends and neighbours, students, teachers, etc. Yes, I admit that keeping in touch with every single person may not be easy or possible, but its worth trying. At times, I do feel like I am the one trying to maintain a good relationship with someone and the person is taking it for granted. For instance, you have to initiate everything and at one point, you are like "if they want to keep the friendship, then they should play a role as well and you should not let it affect you tremendously." If we draw apart, then at least I know that I have tried and done my part.

You also need to understand that people can hurt you, intentionally or unintentionally. It could be somebody you are close to and love or it can be someone who is not so close to you. It hurts more when the person is somebody close compared to the latter. This is why God said put all your hope and maximum love for Him and nobody else. This does not mean that you do not need to love and care for people. Its only the opposite :) God asks you to love people but He reminded us that humans are fragile and have the potential to disappoint and hurt you. That is why God wants us to out Him first because then no matter what happens and whoever hurts you, they will not reach their objective because your heart and feelings are shielded by your love for God. With this in mind, even if your close friends or family hurt you, you are able to forgive them because the One you love (God) is still right there for you and listening. I always try to think that when people act negatively to you in a particular way or does something you dislike or appears to purposely hurt you, it means that they have had people doing things like that to them. They have experienced being treated like that so they feel like doing it to another person as revenge or something. This is not a good attribute definitely because you are intentionally hurting people. However, I always try to think that I am not a perfect person myself and I may have offended another person without realising as well. That is why I try to forgive and forget :) Also, we should not 'bersangka buruk' this means that we should not assume that the other person has bad intentions against us if we are not entirely sure. It may be our own feelings and it will be sinful to to do so especially if that person actually had good intentions. 

Let me give you a few examples so it will be easier to understand. Hurtful things that a friend can do are forgetting your close friend's birthday, cancelling something both of you have planned at the last minute, lying to each other, bragging or purposely doing something that you know would hurt your friend and ignoring your friend's messages or phone calls and many more. These are the most common examples that people seem to do and not realise that it is actually building a negative character in addition to weakening the relationship with the other friend if it is done repeatedly. When I experience one of the above, the first thing I do is try to forgive and look past it. If the person is a good friend, then I know that the good things he/she has done outweighs some of the hurtful ones. Or, the person might have had a bad day or in a difficult situation that day to the point that communicating with others would make it even worse. Or, the simplest reason is people are either busy or simply make mistakes. 

Being nice to people despite how they treat you will make them love and appreciate you even more. Remember that God promised, every time you feel pain or hurtful things in this world, it either erases your sins or you will be granted a certain reward in the hereafter. Isn't that just beautiful? Wouldn't you feel blessed in a way whenever you feel hurt and remain patient? It builds your character in a positive way, while the opposite happens for the other person. A good character and a good heart is what defines a good person, not physical beauty alone. Isn't it wonderful to look beautiful to God? 

Nobody enjoys being hurt, not me, not you. But what keeps us going and stronger is what remains in store for those who are patient and treat people well. How does all of this relate to my topic? Well, it is the ability to deal with these hurtful things that keeps a relationship with another person long and strong. Letting go too easily or being impatient will only make you sad and regretful. If the relationship you have with that person (especially family) is very important and precious, then do your part to keep it. Put aside any ego or selfish feelings. Remember how many times God has forgiven you for your sins and given you a second chance. Unless you are a perfect person, then embrace every single person you love no matter how, why, what and when they hurt you. 

So in order to maintain a good relationship with people, I would sum it up in 3 words:
Patience, Understanding and Love

Friday, June 20, 2014

Confidence in Yourself

Dear all, 

Today I chose this motivation topic because I believe that confidence plays a vital role in any part of your life and like always, I enjoy writing a topic that many people can relate to. 

Whenever people hear the word confidence, they immediately imagine giving a speech on stage. Well, that's a good one but what people do not realise is that confidence involves very little things like feeling appreciated at home and the ability to speak out your feelings to another individual. Or feeling that you are accepted or rejected by the society, your family or friends can also play around with your confidence. It doesn't have to be something big. For instance, someone ignores you or excludes you from an outing. You can easily feel rejected and your confidence zooms down. Confidence is something that varies from time to time and also depends on the situation. Its not exactly right to classify a person as confident because he/she may be confident to speak on stage but not very confident to socialise. What's important here is to ensure that your confidence level is balanced and to give it a boost everytime it drops. I don't fancy people who make themselves confident by feeling superior to others. Yes, confidence is feeling good about yourself but that doesn't mean that it needs to involve the credibility of other people. If you always use other people to measure how good you are, you won't go too far because you are putting that person as the limit. Push your limits and try not to compare too much. Yes, there will be people in this world much much smarter than you and no matter how hard you try, it would be a supreme challenge to reach their level but should this lower your confidence? NOPE :) Everybody has their talents, strengths and weaknesses. They may be super good in their career, work, studies but how about their personal life? How about expanding their talents like do they learn music, play sports or ( whatever your talent is) like you? Or if you feel like you do not have any talent but you have a good relationship with people and God, then that is a big achievement. Does that other person have special relationship like that? Or does their life revolve around 1 particular thing. 

At times, your confidence is challenged when everybody else does something that you do not do. Let me give an example to make this easier to explain. When I first reached UK, I was really looking forward to the ice breaking session and when I got to know it actually involved drinking and partying at the bar, I knew I was not going definitely. Most people did, the locals mostly. I waited for a week to see if there was going to be any other interesting activity but no. Just partying, drinking, pub crawling that sort of thing. Finally I stopped hoping because by the end of the month, I realised that this partying and drinking is going to last forever. Whenever there is a prize-giving or something, the prize is sometimes a bottle of wine, beer, champagne, alcohol. Its a shame how they assume that everybody drinks, well I guess the majority of them of course. However, you need to have a stand. If you do not drink, then you don't. Not even a little. Even if 90% of the people around you do something that you do not do, having a strong stand can really boost your confidence. If you just go with the follow and do it to fit in and not because you like to do it, your confidence level will drop and you will be worried that they will find out that you are not acting like your true self.  I personally do not like this getting drunk environment, I have no intention to offend anybody and respect people's opinion and that certainly doesn't mean I hate people who do so. Not at all. But that's my stand and for me to respect people who behave differently, I believe that they should respect it when people think otherwise as well. 

Nobody is perfect and at times, you weakness can make you lose you confidence slightly. Cheer up and learn to laugh at yourself. Don't take life too seriously all the time and do not be too hard on yourself. If you say something wrongly and somebody corrects it, say thank you and learn from it. If it was funny, laugh along. Don't think "OMG why am I making a silly mistake", because the person who corrected you is not perfect themselves and may have once made some silly mistakes as well. 

Finally, having confidence in yourself helps a lot in exams, interviews or presentations, etc. Once you have prepared, just go for it. Remember that you have prepared and you will give your best. Having confidence is linked to a positive attitude. At times, having too low confidence may affect your performance negatively. You are prepared and will do good, but because you keep telling yourself that you will not, the brain believes it and fails to behave normally. When you receive the result of your interview, test, etc, if they respond negatively or do not offer you a position, then do not feel disheartened. Always remember that it may not be because of your performance but because they had limited spaces and that they were filled by people who had priority or more experienced in ways that you are yet to achieve. It had nothing with you not being good enough and take that as a learning experience. Whenever you apply for something and do not get it, its a good idea to always think that it was not meant for you and it was good practice for whatever that is coming your way soon. :) Always trust that God had good plans for you. And not achieving something you really hoped for may actually lead to another door that is more beneficial and more interesting.

Have confidence and try not to let anything mentioned above to demotivate you or push down your confidence. Believe in yourself because if you do not, then nobody will. 

Have a pleasant weekend and hope you enjoyed reading!



Thursday, June 19, 2014

World Cup 2014- Football Match for my 1st time

The last time it was World Cup, I was in Form 5 I think -my SPM year. Before my brother was born, my football interest was literally zero. Now that my brother and <3 are both big football fans, I'm beginning to learn more and more everyday, even asked to play it sometimes ><








Speaking of World Cup, I was surprised when I received tickets for the International Friendly Match between Peru and England from <3 :) It was a preparation for both teams before the big World Cup and the match was held in Wembley Stadium, London. This pleasant surprise was received at Alicante Airport, Spain via watsapp. I was on my way back to London at that time :)

Being my first football match, I did not know what to expect. Some of my girlfriends said it was boring and sleepy while some said it was amazing. To me, anything that the people I love find interesting would definitely be worth my time. 





So, the first step was to figure out what to wear. I only had 1 neutral jersey which was red, no logo whatsoever. However, the opposition team was suppose to be red (Peru) and home team was wearing white. I found out that England does wear red jerseys sometimes so it wouldn't be a crime to sit on the home team's side wearing that colour. 

The match was on a Friday evening and on that morning, I had a Statistics and programming test. So I was definitely looking forward to this match to ease the stress ;)

3 hours before the match, we left to the stadium. When we almost reached the station, I could see happy faces of small children dressed in England jerseys or accessories. There was a lively atmosphere even on the tube and I loved it, it made me feel so happy. Once we reached, the environment was even livelier ^^ People were singing, dancing blowing the horn, wearing colourful hats, children with cute face painting, music, many people were near the tube station and once we passed by a street, there were even some guys who stopped some cars and blew the horns at them. It was so joyful and lively.

After having quick dinner- we had a chicken sandwich and chicken wrap each at a halal takeaway restaurant, we bought some souvenirs. I bought a half Peru half England scarf which the date of the match and some memorable details. My very first one.

Going into Wembley Stadium was exciting as well. I had to scan my ticket at the entrance and then we headed up and up to our seats. We sat facing one corner or the rectangular stadium which had a nice view :D They started off with the national anthem and soldiers paraded in with the England and Peru flag. All the spectators were given a fan-like piece of cardboard and once the opening ceremony was over we had to lift it facing the stadium. This would form the England flag when viewing on TV. Our one was white.





When the game started, I barely realised it because the whistle was not that clear and loud but judging by the timer which had started and the players who were running, I knew the game has just begun. It started at about 8pm and after a 15 minute half time, it ended at 1015 pm.

During the game, we saw Prince William from afar. There was something very funny that happened. You see people started making airplanes out of the soft cards that were provided for everyone. They started throwing it towards the football field. This kept me distracted and awake whenever I got bored of seeing the two teams constantly kicking balls on either side of the field. The green field was also BEAUTIFULLY GREEN. I just liked taking photos of it ;) So while these people were throwing the paper airplanes, many did not reach the field even and eventually swerved back to the audience. However, there was one lucky paper plane that went straight down to the field and further and further and further till it hit the head of one of the Peru players! Omg it was so funny and everybody was laughing.




Then the spectators created a wave, so people would stand when the wave reached them and it went around like 5-6 times before it stopped eventually. Towards the end of the game, the England coach constantly changed the players so most of them would have a chance I guess.

2 hours felt very quick and it ended at a quarter past 10. At about 10, people were leaving the stadium already to avoid the congestion. Imagine how 80 000 people were going to leave the stadium at one go. When we arrived, most of us came at different times so it was much better but leaving the place took a longer time. Luckily there was some police there to guide the traffic and make sure that it was not too congested and that people were not pushing. We got the tube and thankfully reached home in about an hour.




My first football match was definitely a memorable experience and I would absolutely want to go again in the future. So if people ask me if I'm a football fan? Emm no not really but I really love going to watch the games :)

World Cup 2014 is a memorable one for me because it introduced the world of football to a new fan (me) and made me have a different perspective about the football matches. Although I had not really watched 1 full game, I am definitely anxious to know the champion!

Friday, June 6, 2014

My Hair Products


Before you read this post, perhaps it would be more helpful if you press the link I included below at the end of this post. In case you didn't know, it currently has 126 comments and 51 693 total pageviews ( only I can retrieve this information). How did this happen? I have no idea. Google mistakenly listed me as a Professional Hairstylist I guess. And the reason why I decided to write this post was so that I can officially inform readers that I am not. I know this is so random. My blog is more catered for Education topics, motivation, scholarships and some updates of my life. However, there was one day that I came back from the salon after doing my regular rebonding and hair treatment, I decided to write that post which became one of the top post on Google when you type 'rebonding'. 

Nevertheless, yes I do rebond my hair every single year, sometimes twice a year since I was in Year 6 ^^ So perhaps, some of the tips I learned along the way and hair products I discovered effective may be useful for those who are new to rebonding.

Rebonding, I once read is one of the number 1 thing that can cause the most damage to your hair. Because of this, it requires very careful and consistent hair treatment. I have been used to this for almost 10 years now so here are a few hair products that I recommend. Usually they are used everytime you wash your hair, which ideally should be on alternate days or every 2 days. Washing your hair too frequent especially if it is long can cause a lot of damage/ hair loss in the long run, especially if you have long hair.

I included some pictures of my hair products, not all because some of my products are general ones that are more specific to my hair type. Now I'll list down most of the hair products I use everytime its a 'Wash Hair Day':

*note that I am following the sequence of which hair product I apply first to the last.





  • Know that I am washing my hair later- apply hair oil. This can either be natural products like coconut milk (yes I've tried this before very good but a bit messy so you need to stay still or wrap your hair) or you can apply Mustika Ratu Cem-Ceman Murni (its green, no smell, makes your hair oily so make sure you do not use it if you need to go somewhere public before washing your hair. I have finished 1 bottle and usually wash my hair straight away after leaving it on for 30 mins or so.) Indian hair oil works well, I have tried it before but the only problem is that it leaves a strong smell even after washing. I still have mine with me because this is the most effective oil and even makes your hair thicker.
  • Wash hair shampoo, once or twice.
  • Apply conditioner- your own choice as different ones work best for different hair type.
  • Apply hair mask- I have included a picture of mine, its L'oreal hair mask for dry hair (orange top). Note that if you do not have much time, you can choose to apply either one: conditioner or hair mask.
  • Apply hair treatment cream once you have rinsed your hair and got out of the shower. Note: This hair treatment cream is shown in the picture ( grey bottle, black top), used in hair salons and usually charged hundreds for each treatment, has a minty and cooling effect on your scalp and very nice smell. It should only be applied once a month or when you think is necessary, like after perming your hair,etc
  • Skip the step above if you are aiming to be quick because you would need to rinse off the cream, ideally 1 hour after.
  • For those experiencing hair loss: Dry your hair with a towel so it becomes half-dry. Then spray hair tonic on the scalp. I was confused how to use it when I first started but its very easy. Just split your hair so that you can see the scalp and spray it as close to the scalp as you can. You should feel liquid on your scalp as proof that you have sprayed at the right place. Repeat this at different parts of your head this it feels even.
  • Blow dry your hair if you do not want to wait for it to dry naturally. I know that many people are busy and do not have much time to spend hours after washing their hair.
  • After blow-drying or after it is almost dry (its ok if it is a bit damp), apply hair serum at the hair tips. I have included a picture here ( green bottle, olive oil, wonderful smell, my favourite product). Before, I used to sue Sassy Serum (it comes in a red box, transparent bottle and red writings) but I don't know why its very difficult to get. I have used it for so many years up to the point that when I compared the price when I first and last used it, there was like more than a RM5 price increase. Companies usually don't increase the price that drastically so you can imagine for how long I used that serum. Now that I have discovered this Olive Hair Serum, I bought bottles of it in case it runs out ;)
  • The reason why I opt for serum and not leave-on cream is because I prefer the oily texture of hair serum. Yes leave-on cream has a better smell and easier to apply but it does not last long and not much long term effect. I have tried both and realise the effect. When I am using leave-on cream, my hair gets dry within hours while when I use serum, it stays moist for the whole day! Sometimes even 2 days.
  • You can apply hair serum anytime not only after washing your hair but its best to make sure you apply it at the TIPS everytime after washing especially if you have dry hair. Tips: Never ever apply hair serum at the scalp, thats rule #1 if you are thinking of applying serum. 
These are most of my hair tips :) If you need help with perm or hair colour treatment, I do not have any personal experience so asking your hair stylist may be a better idea. If you do not have one try consulting a professional hair salon. Remember, cheap treatment does not mean it is good and suitable for your hair. This is one thing I always bear in mind for the past years that I rebonded my hair. I made sure I did it in my regular place or if I wanted to try somewhere new, then I would ask what products they used first.

People might wonder why I do all this, well I used to be born with straight hair and over time the hot weather ( I assume) made it slightly curly and frizzy. I know that curly hair is nice, who knows one day I might want it to grow naturally ;) Also, I like the softness and natural texture of my hair and since I am rebonding it so often, I needed to know the hair care tips so it wouldn't be too prone to damage. 

Hope you find this article informative and if you have any questions related to rebonding then I would try my best to help. 



Enjoy^^

Monday, June 2, 2014

Worry Less, Believe in Yourself More

Dear all, its been awhile since I wrote a motivation article. I know this time of the year is exam season for many people. As for myself, I am done with exams for this term :) I chose to write on this topic because I feel that it relates to almost everybody. No matter what stage of life you are in now, there have been or will be a point that you feel worried about something. I once read a quote that said " Worrying is worse than the problem itself". Its difficult to not worry about something, may it be your future, your exams, a project, or anything significant in your life. 

When there is something on your mind, it is difficult to think of other things and you will be focused on trying to find a solution for that particular thing. But if you knew that someone would take care of it. There is nothing to worry about and you just need to wait and be patient for the results, how would you feel? Definitely very relieved I'm sure :) Whenever you feel worried, try to have the belief that God will take care of it for you. I know this is not easy but have trust in Him and believe that He wants the best for each of His creations. After doing your part like working/ initiating a solution, just pray to God and believe that everything will turn out fine. Maybe the result of the situation is not exactly how you expected, but maybe that was the best for you. For example, while applying for halls last year, I was hoping to get one that was cheaper and slightly further from college. When the results came out, I was surprised that I got the most expensive on my list. Nevertheless, it was the nearest to college and I got a single room :) Now that I am experiencing life in halls, I am so very thankful that I am living just 5 minutes from college because it is very convenient especially when we have practicals to do out of class hours, like at night. Or during my fieldtrip when we need to gather in college at 5am. When I was applying for halls, I didn't know about these things or didn't think of it much and placed the price as priority. Also, staying near saved me money and time on public transport and travelling. It was a blessing in disguise and at that time when I got the letter, I did not think of these things and wished so much that I got the cheaper one.

My point here is that worrying about obtaining something you don't wish for may actually be good for you in ways you do not realise initially. Ok let's speak of results. Maybe some of you are thinking, how does this conclusion apply to exam results. Well, for instance if you graduate from school with the results that you did not expect for, maybe that was the key of achieving a career that is suitable for you. Imagine a student that wished for all A's because they wanted to do Pharmacy. However, when the results came out, the student had 1 A less than expected. This did not match the grade requirement for the Pharmacy School so the student ends up doing Physiotherapy. Let's imagine the grade requirement was slightly lower for this other course. During the study period, the student realises how interesting the subject is and how enthusiastic he/she feels about it. Later in their career, they become very successful and passionate about it and couldn't imagine doing a different job. They may have even met their soul mate along the way and thought back how they wouldn't have crossed paths if they took a different route in life. 

Always believe that everything happens for a reason. You are where you are now because there is a lesson that God wants you to learn and experience that is offered only once in a lifetime. Life changes every few years, its usually a different setting, a different place and different people. I can't deny that I miss certain periods of my life so very much, like when my baby brother was just born, when I was little and during A-levels, one of the best 1.5 years of my life and I know I might say the same thing about university life in London once its done. Yes, I am currently enjoying life here. Classes are not the same without my group of loving A-level friends who makes class feel like a little family but in university now, many of my close friends are in different courses which makes life outside class very interesting ;) And life inside class more focused and serious :D 

My first year journey is coming to an end soon and I pray that it will be completed with success. I really can't believe that I made it through 1 entire academic year in London independently of course with the help of my loved ones. When I look back, so many things happened and I learned so many things through trial and error. Waking up by myself has become a compulsory rule and gets more challenging when Subuh starts at 230am and ends at 450am. At times, its true when they say " You never know what you're capable of until you are in a situation when you need to do it."

Whoever is experiencing exams now, just stay calm and study as much as you can. If you get bored or lose focus just do something else. Don't feel too guilty, do what makes you healthy and happy. 

Time passes by really quick and before you know it, your life is switched into a different scene. Make the best of the time you have at the present. Its not a good idea to think in detail too far ahead because we are not sure if we live up to that day but its alright to have an idea of the future and plan ahead.

Believe that you will make the right choice for yourself and hopefully everything will turn out better than expected. Wishing everyone a wonderful week ahead :)

Friday, May 23, 2014

Fieldwork in Spain

Dear all, thank you for waiting patiently for my next post. After 2 weeks or pure hard work in Spain, I am now back :) Here is a short story of my little adventure.





Before going there, most of us weren't sure of what to expect as it was our first time going on a real mapping trip. Dorset was just a short 3 days and only 1 of those days involved mapping. This time is was 1 week of geology exercises at different places and 1 week of mapping.

Overall, the trip was what I'd call PURE hardwork, physically and mentally. We worked almost all days including Saturday and half a day on Sunday. Basically the routine was:

630- Woke up for prayers, got ready
745- Breakfast, make your own lunch
845- Gather outside to go to destination
9-5- Work continuously in the field while carrying a rucksack, only quick break for lunch
6- Reach home, line up for the shower
7 or 8 (depends on which group you are changes alternate days)- Dinner
9- Meet lecturers at Shady Grove (the only tiny shop/bar in that area) for feedback on notebook and work in the day
1130/12- Sleep ( some people didn't sleep on the night before any submission)


Lunch in town where I got quick wifi: Gambas (prawn)

Orange trees


A twinned gypsum crystal, do you see the swallowtail shape?


Working here really put us out of our comfort zone and not everyone can work under these conditions. I have never lived in a boarding school before and this definitely felt like one. There were 2 dorms for the girls. My dorm was smaller, 12 people including myself. There was limited walking area once everyone put their bags down. The size of the room is twice the size of a normal hotel room for 2 double beds, which meant yes were so close to each other most of the time ;)

The food was great! Just like in boarding school, you need to eat what they serve and when they  serve it. The kitchen will be closed outside breakfast and dinner hours, you everyone has to eat something. Plus there isn't any shop nearby so if we didn't bring any snack from home, we would literally starve. We couldn't choose what to eat but I took the vegetarian option since I wasn't sure if it was halal meat. The non-veggie option looked more yummy of course. For dinner, we would have soup for the started- all kinds of soup; courgette, carrot, mushroom, mixed veggie and many more. The the main meal is served; once we had fish curry and rice, veggie sausages, potatoes, beans, on Sunday it was BBQ and on the last night, they served PAELLA (a famous Spanish cuisine). The funny thing was that some of the veggie food looked exactly like the non-veggie ones. We assumed they used corn or some latest food technology. After the main meal, we would have dessert. It would change everyday, at times it was yoghurt, jelly, pies, cheesecake, strawberries and whipped cream, ice cream and many more.

Paella- I was a vegetarian the entire 2 weeks

Our lecturer, Andrew outside the tiny bar/shop called Shady Grove

Poor doggy was scared that many people got drunk on the last day, so I thought it deserved a photo for being so well-behaved


I guess many things in life are not easy and sometimes you need to go through something challenging to know that you can actually do it. That's something I clearly learned throughout my experience there. When I was there, I felt like any stress I felt before this related to studies was very trivial compared to what I had to go through; the weather which was usually hot and could be very windy and cold on certain days, the physical challenge of going up 500-600m high hills. Also walking the whole day carrying a heavy rucksack and 2L of water and food. Finding your own toilet and privacy. Walking and working all day, even at night even in the weekends.  I have never felt so fit in my life. And never knew I could do it. No wifi, no means of Internet connection or with the outside world. You live in the present, with your friends and whoever is there at the moment. It was such a nice feeling, to feel so alive and living the present without worrying of anything else beyond that. Over there, I only thought of the day's work and tomorrow. That's all. When the day's works done you go to bed for a fresh morning. When I came back to my room in London, I was so thankful for many things. I was like ' OMG I have my own sink in my room, The kitchen is open 24/7 just beside my room, my own toilet, a lift to go upstairs, a comfy room all to myself, lots of space to put my belongings (no more being accidentally hit everytime I'm opening my bag and someone enters the door) , lots of clothes to wear, washing machine downstairs, no need to handwash everything, clean air, no need to pay for clean water, wifi again and the list goes on) For the first 2 days, I kept thinking of these things especially the moment I entered my room. I was like 'Is this all mine?' 

I learned so much throughout the trip, and on the Sunday that we reached Alicante airport, I was so extremely happy to be going back to London that I literally bought loads of souvenirs at the airport for my family. It was such a bright and beautiful day, I'm not sure if it was just me. But everything I wish for a happy moment I'll remember that day. When I was on the plane, I was imagining myself coming home very soon insyaAllah. Being there has made me conclude that for any course that involves going to classes and staying in your room or library to do your work, has nothing to complain about. So, only Medicine students can complain because they have their practical. 





When the bus left Urra and the field centre people like Pablo, Norma and a few others were saying goodbye, I just felt this lump in my throat. I don't know if I'll ever see the place and the people again. Even if I came for a holiday to Spain I wasn't sure if this was even a tourist attraction, it was too far and isolated. Perhaps one day when I'm older I can come and see the place I used to map for 2 weeks as a 1st Year student. They have treated us so well, gave us very nice food and did their part to make sure that we were comfortable there. Although sometimes not the case, its hard when there are 86 people in 1 house and it would get dirty towards the end of the day. 

Places that we visited & things that we did:

  • Produce a metamorphic map along 1km road
  • Visit Isabella Dam and concluded how it failed and made measurements
  • Visit the El Joyazo Crater and the Garnet Volcano which had tonnes of real garnet gemstones ( yes I did pick up some)
  • Created a stereonet and cross section based on Sorbas-Tabernas Basin
  • Studied volcanic rocks at Cabo de Gata National Park, then went to the nearby beach to relax
  • Field mapping of Siera de los Filabres for the last week
If you are sitting for an exam or basically just feeling stressed about something, perhaps reading this post might make you feel better. It makes you realise that some people go through more difficult situations than you. As for me, even though it was physically challenging, I enjoy learning about the Earth so that's makes it less of a burden and more of a beneficial experience :)

I didn't take too many pictures this time but there are a few. Enjoy reading and hope everyone is doing good. Take care and have a nice weekend. Till my next post

Earth Science has taken me around the world and no matter how many places it leads me to, 
the heart is always at home :')


 Sunset on the last day